Sisters and Breakups

First, sisters, as I have said, I have two, both younger.  I don’t know them all that well because I was shoved out of the house to my aunts at an early age for my own good.   The middle one has our mom’s not our grandmoms’s tits.  I have grandma’s tits, lol, so does baby sis.    I was looking at baby sis’s pictures today, we don’t look alike except our bodies and she actually has a cute ass,  I had this weird thought.  Baby sis turns me on, I mean not like I want to be gross with her, but wow, she is super cute.  She is also very sweet.  She is one of the nicest people you would ever want to meet.

I thought of middle sis, the titless.  It is weird when I look at other women, I usually don’t think about their tits at all, I mostly think of how it feels to be around them, happy or mean.  I love happy, sick of the mean.  It feels mean to be around middle sister,  and because she is my sister, I look at her and think “where are your tits?”  I mean unlike other women, it seems like they are missing on her, other women look normal to me.   She does have tits, I am not being fair, I am a bit pissed at her for being so smug as of late.  It is true, she is more successful than me or baby sis, she has more self-esteem in a way.  But she makes a big show about how loving she is, and she is actually superior and bitchy.   Okay, I did not say that.

The friend I “broke up with” recently, um maybe we are not broken up now.  He was mad that I kissed his friend but it was just a kiss, a kiss to a very nice person.  That is okay.  But after going all hurt, now friend is making  jokes all the time that seem to feature cum in the boatloads, but not obvious, just like “Pearls, spillage, explosion, dripping, white stuff, load”   and his assistant, who I think is in love with him like he is a meal-ticket always laughs and says “good one”    She smells.  I wish she wouldn’t.  I feel bad for saying that, but I wish she would not have to be on top of me all the time, not literally, but really, it is gross.   She always has to be better than me.  She always has to be sucking all the energy out of the room.  Oh I am really going to hell now.    God I feel guilty for saying that but I also want her off me.   She is wonderful, I just want her to be wonderful on her own self not on me.

The point is I am getting the vibe that friend wants to fuck me again now, but not like before, a grudge fuck.  It makes me unsure about how I feel about him.