So I keep promising myself I will stop, especially stop sitting on fat old men’s laps and letting them suck me until I squeal. But I keep squealing. Then all is lost. I did have fun, the music was loud, there were lights, strobe lights. It is so lame that they got all pissy when it first started and I took one picture, and they took my camera/phone whatever away because they all took pictures. At one point, when I still had my cowboy hat on I was holding on to this pipe thing, I don’t know, some thing, close to the ceiling, and this man was inside me, from behind, holding me up. I did squeal a bit, I only squeal, never talk, and my tits were bouncing because someone made a comment and then I looked down and all I saw were i-phones. All I felt were hands and mouths. I was happy but then I felt shy and then I am sure it was my uncle directing as he was calling me lazy, he always calls me lazy when it is hard to get in me, he says I am not cooperating. Then I was giggling and scooting away, and then I was stopped with a cock in my mouth and the music was so loud, my pigtails were being pulled on, but of course, the cum is when they want it. Open your eyes, I do, we will frost you cupcake, I laugh, I drink a bowl, but at the end it is only when they want me. I don’t want to want them, but I do a bump, I put some coke in my pussy, I take a strangers dick in my mouth. Look at me, they say, I smile, and look. See, I would like to have some of that film, but they will act like it never happened and fap, fap, fap
I was most excellent though for that one moment, with my pink cowboy hat still on, my pigtails still in. My small squeals…the hands grabbing me, pulling me down, holding my tits, directing me who to suck off. I felt so soft. I wish there had been another girl there, Idk, there is something so funny and sexy to me watching boobies bounce, and also seeing some girl just get it from all sides, but I need to see it, when I just am, it, when I am just getting frosted, tossed around, called a lazy fuck-pig because I am small, it is not the same. I am not lazy.
See, and all the others get the video of me being a cowgirl. Unfair, I know I was awesome
So I have been very good as of late, but then I let this ‘friend’ of mine talk me into a favor. He is a salesman, and was going to try to entertain what he told me were two grandpas from out of town and it was no thing, etc. etc.
Which honestly, it wasn’t a big thing, I didn’t like the one grandpa so much, and he failed to mention the grandsons, but the one I did like, and of course I needed some generosity. So I showed up, like I promised in a small white shirt and a little plaid skirt without undies. I went up to their room, they were from Israel, so naturally, like to humiliate blonde girls. Hairy and chubby. But weirdly for a while have gotten off on sitting on hairy chubby old guys, having some kind of early experience redux fantasy.
So I was having fun, sitting on grandpa number 1, letting him chomp on me like I don’t know, very chompy titties, rubbing his hands up my skirt, nom nom nom. Grandpa 2 was not so fun. Totally fascinated not with me, but what he could stick in my ass, hotel pen, etc. Way more into kink, domination, wanted to take me from Grandpa one and be super weird. Which happened way faster than I was ready for.
Grandpa2 was also very into recording me and look at me, look at me, open her blue eyes, slapping his dick around my face, which wasn’t even hard. I wanted to stay with Grandpa 1 and play around but he was more passive than Grandpa 2, and in no time they had me tied against the bed. Which I knew was part of the deal, they didn’t tie my legs though, just my arms and then the ass thing again. But he wanted to take pictures of my face which was weird, oh and make me bounce, oh the fat titties bounce. Then the three nephews–
I don’t think they were really nephews, but they were not weird like Grandpa 2, by my face, making me look at him the whole time, so he could record me with his phone. Super into humiliating me. They were just normal guys wanting to fuck, only the first one was so big he brought tears to my eyes, but not so bad, or unusual for me, I clench too much, then I learn to adjust.
They actually seemed really quick, but then I had not eaten all day. The first I naturally remember most. I squealed, I love that part, but I could tell he wanted me to stop, Grandpa 2 liked that and made sure he recorded that. I kind of passed out at the end of 3. Then Grandpa 2 wanted to stick the hotel pen in my ass again. No one else was that kinky. I didn’t get that much cum on me. at the end of it all, Grandpa 2 was making every one record me with their phones while he made my tits shake. In a way, it was somewhat disappointing.
Then Grandpa 2 untied me, while Grandpa 1 just sat there all lazy like stroking himself. He had nephew one, the biggest take me from behind while the other nephews hit their dicks playfully against my face while he tried to get himself and Grandpa 1 to take pictures, although Grandpa one seemed more into rubbing his dick and not caring. I did scream esp. when nephew 1 went where Grandpa 2 liked his hotel pen, on grandpa 2’s direction. I don’t know. Something gets lost though when Grandpa 2 is making everything not so sexy.
He finally did get Nephew 1 to come on my face, but then made me say it was him, Grandpa 2 and thank him by name in his stupid i-phone. Grandpa 2 wants me to visit him again.
Maybe. The nice thing about being tied up is you feel so free from responsibility. I feel like I should be upset about how many recorded sex acts I have been a party to, but I don’t. A lot at this point. It reminds me a bit of when I entertained the Germans with the rhinestone collar. Idk.
First, sisters, as I have said, I have two, both younger. I don’t know them all that well because I was shoved out of the house to my aunts at an early age for my own good. The middle one has our mom’s not our grandmoms’s tits. I have grandma’s tits, lol, so does baby sis. I was looking at baby sis’s pictures today, we don’t look alike except our bodies and she actually has a cute ass, I had this weird thought. Baby sis turns me on, I mean not like I want to be gross with her, but wow, she is super cute. She is also very sweet. She is one of the nicest people you would ever want to meet.
I thought of middle sis, the titless. It is weird when I look at other women, I usually don’t think about their tits at all, I mostly think of how it feels to be around them, happy or mean. I love happy, sick of the mean. It feels mean to be around middle sister, and because she is my sister, I look at her and think “where are your tits?” I mean unlike other women, it seems like they are missing on her, other women look normal to me. She does have tits, I am not being fair, I am a bit pissed at her for being so smug as of late. It is true, she is more successful than me or baby sis, she has more self-esteem in a way. But she makes a big show about how loving she is, and she is actually superior and bitchy. Okay, I did not say that.
The friend I “broke up with” recently, um maybe we are not broken up now. He was mad that I kissed his friend but it was just a kiss, a kiss to a very nice person. That is okay. But after going all hurt, now friend is making jokes all the time that seem to feature cum in the boatloads, but not obvious, just like “Pearls, spillage, explosion, dripping, white stuff, load” and his assistant, who I think is in love with him like he is a meal-ticket always laughs and says “good one” She smells. I wish she wouldn’t. I feel bad for saying that, but I wish she would not have to be on top of me all the time, not literally, but really, it is gross. She always has to be better than me. She always has to be sucking all the energy out of the room. Oh I am really going to hell now. God I feel guilty for saying that but I also want her off me. She is wonderful, I just want her to be wonderful on her own self not on me.
The point is I am getting the vibe that friend wants to fuck me again now, but not like before, a grudge fuck. It makes me unsure about how I feel about him.